i tink its pretty obvious tat im not muc of an avid blogger tis yr as u can tell..
tings had been kinda rough during my ferst 3 mnths in sec4 year..
&& jus to let u guys noe..my dad found out bout us lyk las sat..definitly he went bersurk bout it dat ive been lying to him ol tis tym..but he den bcame more disappointed wit mi than angry..i was disappointed wit mysef too then..

ol the while he scolded mi ol i culd do is sigh coz ol de tings he told had bn sed b4 many a tymes..so i started cryind n asked him if he wants mie to breakup wit zul now..my dad wanted 2 mit him..nn im very proud dat zul is suc a courages nn sincere person 2 come punctualy yest at 8..i made him tea,&& we sat in such a formal arrangement..one side of de sofa was mi&zul, the other was my mom&dad..so yar my dad told zul de same tings he told mie b4 n ol zul did was nodded..respectful isnt he..but der was one part tat triggered me wen my dad says dat he actually has a gd feeling bout tis coz he tinks dat its probably gona turn out well one day..

den wen i sent zul to de bustop,ol we did was tok && tried 2 laugh coz it wuld b our last miting in 3weeks..we didnt hold hands,we didnt hug..ol we gave eac other was a flyin kiss thru the window wen he got in de bus..as de bus faded away from my sight,i felt tat veri moment as if de werld was gona come crashing down on me..i went home nn acted as if none of tat had happened..&& as i was studyin fer physics,i duno y,i started crying wen im actuali supossed 2b hapi dat my parents r giving mi a rare chance of haivn a bf at tis age..their planned age fer us 2 haf one was actualli 21..crazy as it seems,its wat dey think..nn i cant deny tat it was for the gd..after only one whole day of study3 & no ZuL's voice,i REALLY miss him alot okey..

The changes ive made now was kinda drastic compared 2 these past 3 mnths..usuali i wuld jus had done my hw nn dats it..but now its lyk,in de bus,reading period,waiting tym,straight after skul,i had took everi opportunity today 2 study my physics nn even tried changing my body clock wic didnt werk coz im not a night person..woke up wit a headache nn could absorb anytin..
yes.....its true......i'd do anytin....ANYTIN 2 get 2b wit him...whateever it takes.....

just dun fade away frm my arms bcoz of tis.....
we've gone thru so muc 2gede,but ders still more 2 come.....
without u,i dun tink i wuld haf tis motivation 2 do it....
i really love youu...<33
&& i miss eu so muc X(

!bye lev

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